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Somethings ain't just worth till u have them
Then even a million bucks won't take u away.
It starts with a smile, a conversation,
Five conversations later, u just can't stay away.

Distance seems so far away, till u find a reason to cross it,
Eyes meet across a hallway, meaningful glances.
The smell of her perfume dulls ur senses.
The move of her hips in your mind still stays.

They say love is blind till you feel it,
The reasons no man can understand,
The love for her keeps you seemingly without reason
The woman's worth just keeps increasing.

Somethings ain't just worth till u feel them
Your love, your warmth, the soft touch of your lips.
I might be a blind fool, a prisoner but this I know.
This ship has come to rest. To rest in the port of love.

Things change...

Rarely hardly ever do this, but then I wrote this while thinking of a friend of mine.


Tears may come now, but you will smile again,
Pain will go away, wounds will heal again,
Scars may remain, but they can shape and mold you,
So don't try to hide who you are,
But then know who you will be.

The world is round true, but it turns, constantly,
Down you may be today, stars you will face tomorrow.
Seasons come and go but things never remain the same,
A season may bring pain this year, but then;
The same season, could bring joy on the next.

Treasure the times, treasure the moments,
They fly by, past and gone forever.
When it seems you can't hold it in,
Let it out slowly, don't hold it in,
Let it go surely and then move on.

Life is a journey, a life-long one,
Whether it be comfortable or uncomfortable,
Know this, it can get easier if u move on,
So, smile through the tears,
Laugh through the pain,
Find the little slices of joy,
So you can be as right as rain.
Hold the joy in and find warmth,
Laugh through the pain and know peace,
Know and remember all through this;
Things never ever stay the same.


Many thoughts.

Mixed Feelings

One of them sleepless nights, a night when you desire company but at the same time dread it, one of the times when you need a friend but are scared that the demands you could place on them would be far more than they should bear. A partial expression of how I feel.


A combination of sad. lonely and tired,
Heart aches, mind races, many paces,
Sleepless nights,, physically tired,
I close my eyes and see different faces.
Faces from the past, the present and the future.
Mind threatens to fall apart, needing a suture.

I look around, searching for refuge, for strength,
I walk around, I need hope, i am losing my faith.
Nothing seems to work right, things fall apart,
I wonder and I wander, should I stay or go,
Can I stand the cold, these winds that blow
Or should I let it be and just let it go.

A hug, a shoulder, a kind word or thought,
Someone to trust, to care is what I want,
A place I can come back to, no matter what,
A friend, companion, a place of comfort.
Out of the fear and the cold, a place of warmth.
A place where I can close my eyes without thought.
(To be continued)

The missing piece

Do you ever feel like something is missing?
Like no matter how much you have,
that there is something more?
Do you ever feel like there is someone missing?
Someone all the people in the world can't replace?
Do you ever feel devoid of just one emotion,
Fun moments that don't last,
Smiles that don't reach your eyes'
Tears just beneath the surface
A heartache that nudges your mind
At least once a day to remind u of this...
Carefree moments spent with a loved one.
Moments when all that matteres was someone else
Memories of times when 2 souls where so closely knit
The entire world ceased to exist.
Hearts beating in sync,
Lips locked in a kiss so deep.
Minds at peace, limbs at ease
Memories from a time before,
A time once again longed for
A time with you.

Fears

I dare to think, I dare to believe,
I dare to hope, and I think you can see...
My fears clash with my desires,
I am scared that all with go up in fires.
I know what I want, I see what I need,
But to reach out could mean I will bleed.
It hurts when a heart gets broken
It numbs though when that heart is taken.
I think it hurts even more when that heart is in sight,
But the path to it is as dark as night.

It is beautiful when you are with someone,
Someone you can share your world with,
It hurts when the one thing you can't share.
Is how you feel about that someone.
Unspoken words, held in just to give support,
Unsaid feelings loudly proclaimed with my eyes,
Sad to say those eyes can't be seen,
Those words can't be heard,
My heart's desires, my mind travels,
Everything points to you, longs for you,
But the fear of holding so tight
Keeps me real quiet.
The fear that I will kill the thing I long for,
Makes me hold my peace.
Unsaid words, unspoken feelings.
One day will be revealed.

In a little while

If you have ever seen a farmer sow seeds, seen the seed in the moments from when the seed leaves the farmers hand, to the point where it hits the ground? That is how I feel, unsure, not knowing where I will land.

Add the winds, add a storm blowing, add a lot of other factors and it sums up to a very shaky flight, that is where I am, unsure... Truth be told if things were as easy as we always think they are, life will be a lot easier to walk through. Sadly it almost ever is..

I leave the hand scared, cold, lonely. We were many when in the farmers hands, but now I am alone, I had the comfort of other seeds, I had the warmth of the farmers hands, but now I am cold.

I know my heart, I know my fears, I know what I may see by the time I hit the ground, and I will admit that I am frightened, worried, but on the exterior I am so calm, unruffled, hard as a seed on the outside.
On the inside, my heart is shaky, my mind is quaking, thoughts keep running in my mind of what could be, what could be going on and the consequences of my flight.

I know this for sure though, I will land, I will root and I will grow, no matter where it is. I will hurt for a while, I will be lonely for a while, and then I will shoot out and be my own man. Strong as I am meant to be, bold as I have to be, facing the odds with my foundation sinking far beneath the ground I see.

All in a little while...

Desires

The writing is on the wall that I dare,
The words are screaming that I care,
My lips form the words; hey dear,
My body longs and aches to feel you near.

I long for a partner, someone to hold dear,
I want, I long, to be in a pair,
I want to douse my doubts and my fear,
I want to express myself just so you hear.

I might be scared, frightened like a deer,
But with you I am bold, stronger than a bear,
I sit and wonder till my heart seem to tear,
How did I get to meet a jewel so rare?