The missing piece

Do you ever feel like something is missing?
Like no matter how much you have,
that there is something more?
Do you ever feel like there is someone missing?
Someone all the people in the world can't replace?
Do you ever feel devoid of just one emotion,
Fun moments that don't last,
Smiles that don't reach your eyes'
Tears just beneath the surface
A heartache that nudges your mind
At least once a day to remind u of this...
Carefree moments spent with a loved one.
Moments when all that matteres was someone else
Memories of times when 2 souls where so closely knit
The entire world ceased to exist.
Hearts beating in sync,
Lips locked in a kiss so deep.
Minds at peace, limbs at ease
Memories from a time before,
A time once again longed for
A time with you.

Fears

I dare to think, I dare to believe,
I dare to hope, and I think you can see...
My fears clash with my desires,
I am scared that all with go up in fires.
I know what I want, I see what I need,
But to reach out could mean I will bleed.
It hurts when a heart gets broken
It numbs though when that heart is taken.
I think it hurts even more when that heart is in sight,
But the path to it is as dark as night.

It is beautiful when you are with someone,
Someone you can share your world with,
It hurts when the one thing you can't share.
Is how you feel about that someone.
Unspoken words, held in just to give support,
Unsaid feelings loudly proclaimed with my eyes,
Sad to say those eyes can't be seen,
Those words can't be heard,
My heart's desires, my mind travels,
Everything points to you, longs for you,
But the fear of holding so tight
Keeps me real quiet.
The fear that I will kill the thing I long for,
Makes me hold my peace.
Unsaid words, unspoken feelings.
One day will be revealed.

In a little while

If you have ever seen a farmer sow seeds, seen the seed in the moments from when the seed leaves the farmers hand, to the point where it hits the ground? That is how I feel, unsure, not knowing where I will land.

Add the winds, add a storm blowing, add a lot of other factors and it sums up to a very shaky flight, that is where I am, unsure... Truth be told if things were as easy as we always think they are, life will be a lot easier to walk through. Sadly it almost ever is..

I leave the hand scared, cold, lonely. We were many when in the farmers hands, but now I am alone, I had the comfort of other seeds, I had the warmth of the farmers hands, but now I am cold.

I know my heart, I know my fears, I know what I may see by the time I hit the ground, and I will admit that I am frightened, worried, but on the exterior I am so calm, unruffled, hard as a seed on the outside.
On the inside, my heart is shaky, my mind is quaking, thoughts keep running in my mind of what could be, what could be going on and the consequences of my flight.

I know this for sure though, I will land, I will root and I will grow, no matter where it is. I will hurt for a while, I will be lonely for a while, and then I will shoot out and be my own man. Strong as I am meant to be, bold as I have to be, facing the odds with my foundation sinking far beneath the ground I see.

All in a little while...