Everything New

New every morning, new every time. That's how it should be. Life, love, faith, hope.
New hope every single morning.
Renewal of faith every single day.
The same song, with a new meaning every time we sing it.
Living our life like its new to us, for everyday.
Take a new breath every single time like it means the world to us.
Looking at you differently every single time.
A first kiss every time I kiss you.
A first glance every time I see the naked loveliness that is you.
Loving you everyday in a new way like its the last time I ever do.

You don't mean the world to me, you are my world
So I am going to look at the sun and feel its warmth
I am going to appreciate the air, like it's all I will ever have.
I am going to work the earth, cultivating it in a new way everyday.
I am going to explore that world with new vigor everyday

Such is Life

Hands tied, the ultimate frustration
Especially where a loved one is involved,
Doors shut an incentive to anger,
A sign that we are not needed

We fight, we make up, that is life.
If we are really worth it, we move on.
Hanging on to the outcome of little battles,
Will not win you the war that is life.

Face your fears, admit your faults
Then move on, that is life.
We hang on to petty things,
Little things that really do not matter.

A farmer sows, even through tears,
A soldier fights, even in fear.
We have no right to give up, regardless,
Such my dear should be life.

Lost (Incomplete)

So I am sitting here, wondering,
How did I get to this spot?
Even more important, How do I leave?
It started with curiosity,
Slowly so slowly crept through my mind,
Foolishly I let it take hold of me,
Now i can't shake loose, I'm locked

I started this journey happy,
Focused, mindful and true.
Sincere like a child, happy at heart,
Bubbly with joy, real joy from within.
My Shepherd to guide, me happy to follow,
Memories still remain of times so sweet.
When things were good and also true

They called them wolves, hungry for food,
They offered friendship and looked well kept
They came along with fun, popularity,
All bundled with something called satisfaction,
Curiosity killed the cat they say,
But then same cat has nine lives
And so has liberty to live recklessly

I followed, thinking I was smart and clever
I can pull out and leave whenever I want
So sure I could find my way back to my place
Little did I know that it was a blunder,
Friends in guise, while they shared their hunger.
Days passed, weeks, months and years,
Blind to the truth I still followed.

At the beginning, storms came and passed,
Doubts came and were quickly eased,
Now the clouds are here to stay,
Doubts ever increasing day by day
I am lost, truly, totally, completely
Thought I knew my way but truly I don't
Wish I had someone to guide me home.

Been lost for so long, lost in the dark
It begins to feel familiar, it is all I know,
Sadness at the edge of my mind, round its borders,
Pain right after like a cushion, always growing.
I am tired, been struggling for so long,
I want to let go and drown so I can come out again.

One of them days

A morning, the beginning of a bright new day,
I haven't slept enough, but must still get up,
I up my hygiene, go down on my knees and pray,
Lord let Your will be done till the day is gone.
On a usual day, this would be a beautiful day,
Today I can feel a cloud, I feel something missing,
I feel cold, can't shake the feeling with shivers
There is an empty feeling that lingers

It is so easy to dwell on the cold, the shivers,
Even easier to wallow in hurt and pain that hinders,
Point fingers, push blame, riddled with grief,
Shot by bullets, from many a man's mischief.
Shut yourself up, so people won't see,
Tears keep flowing, won't let you be,
That space in your heart ever increasing,
The numbness it brings never ceasing.

I remember the sunny days gone by, happy days,
I remember the storms in between and I smile
Because I remember the rainbows in between,
Samples of love, promises of warmth to come.
So easy to forget when dark times come,
What it feels like to be warm and loved,
Easy to forget in pain, that its just one chain,
A chain which once broken opens the door to life.

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We struggle we fight, we persevere and hold on,
Searching for signs, when the sign is right before your eyes.
Looking for warnings, when the danger is all around...
Thinking you are following directions, when you are lost..
When you have been lost for so long, that you can't find yourself..
This is not the time to think, not the time to ponder...
This is not the time to fight, but the time to surrender.
He is searching, your Father is, the Shepherd is as well,
The Comforter is waiting for you at that point,
The point where you give in and surrender,
Where you give up and return to His warmth and rest.
Lift up your eyes from all that is around you..
Lift up your eyes and see the situation as it is..
You are not alone..
He has been with you all along just waiting.
Waiting to say, Welcome Home..

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Have you ever been hungry,
Hungry but with no desire to eat.
Ever felt like running?
Running with nowhere to go.
I feel empty, nothing makes any sense.
My life all that I thought had meaning,
Blown away, made meaningless...
Blown away in less than a day...
Am back to the beginning,
Back to the basics. Again.
And it hurts, it hurts badly.
They say life flashes before your eyes
in the moments before you die
I say it flashes before your eyes,
Everytime you come to a point where you have been before.
People don't see the flashes, they never do...
They only see the lost looking man, standing by the road side...
Would be so easy to give up now,
But then history will only see the failure and not the efforts.
In all, all in all... There is a God,
He sees the history and most importantly,
He sees the future. In Him will I trust.

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Somethings ain't just worth till u have them
Then even a million bucks won't take u away.
It starts with a smile, a conversation,
Five conversations later, u just can't stay away.

Distance seems so far away, till u find a reason to cross it,
Eyes meet across a hallway, meaningful glances.
The smell of her perfume dulls ur senses.
The move of her hips in your mind still stays.

They say love is blind till you feel it,
The reasons no man can understand,
The love for her keeps you seemingly without reason
The woman's worth just keeps increasing.

Somethings ain't just worth till u feel them
Your love, your warmth, the soft touch of your lips.
I might be a blind fool, a prisoner but this I know.
This ship has come to rest. To rest in the port of love.