Lost (Incomplete)

So I am sitting here, wondering,
How did I get to this spot?
Even more important, How do I leave?
It started with curiosity,
Slowly so slowly crept through my mind,
Foolishly I let it take hold of me,
Now i can't shake loose, I'm locked

I started this journey happy,
Focused, mindful and true.
Sincere like a child, happy at heart,
Bubbly with joy, real joy from within.
My Shepherd to guide, me happy to follow,
Memories still remain of times so sweet.
When things were good and also true

They called them wolves, hungry for food,
They offered friendship and looked well kept
They came along with fun, popularity,
All bundled with something called satisfaction,
Curiosity killed the cat they say,
But then same cat has nine lives
And so has liberty to live recklessly

I followed, thinking I was smart and clever
I can pull out and leave whenever I want
So sure I could find my way back to my place
Little did I know that it was a blunder,
Friends in guise, while they shared their hunger.
Days passed, weeks, months and years,
Blind to the truth I still followed.

At the beginning, storms came and passed,
Doubts came and were quickly eased,
Now the clouds are here to stay,
Doubts ever increasing day by day
I am lost, truly, totally, completely
Thought I knew my way but truly I don't
Wish I had someone to guide me home.

Been lost for so long, lost in the dark
It begins to feel familiar, it is all I know,
Sadness at the edge of my mind, round its borders,
Pain right after like a cushion, always growing.
I am tired, been struggling for so long,
I want to let go and drown so I can come out again.