In a little while

If you have ever seen a farmer sow seeds, seen the seed in the moments from when the seed leaves the farmers hand, to the point where it hits the ground? That is how I feel, unsure, not knowing where I will land.

Add the winds, add a storm blowing, add a lot of other factors and it sums up to a very shaky flight, that is where I am, unsure... Truth be told if things were as easy as we always think they are, life will be a lot easier to walk through. Sadly it almost ever is..

I leave the hand scared, cold, lonely. We were many when in the farmers hands, but now I am alone, I had the comfort of other seeds, I had the warmth of the farmers hands, but now I am cold.

I know my heart, I know my fears, I know what I may see by the time I hit the ground, and I will admit that I am frightened, worried, but on the exterior I am so calm, unruffled, hard as a seed on the outside.
On the inside, my heart is shaky, my mind is quaking, thoughts keep running in my mind of what could be, what could be going on and the consequences of my flight.

I know this for sure though, I will land, I will root and I will grow, no matter where it is. I will hurt for a while, I will be lonely for a while, and then I will shoot out and be my own man. Strong as I am meant to be, bold as I have to be, facing the odds with my foundation sinking far beneath the ground I see.

All in a little while...